Maaf.

Kurang?

Maaf lagi.

Iya, gue minta maaf (beribu kali) karena gue kesannya sombong banget mentang-mentang udah disini jadi gak update blog.

Maaf.

I knew the importance of this blog as well as journaling, but I forgot how big the importance was.

I just realized that... I don't wanna go into the future, looking back at my exchange year, and found no explanation or writing or whatsoever of what were the frickin' cool things that happened this year.

Gue minta maaf sekaligus mengutuk kepada diri gue sendiri karena jujur, gue ngerasa bersalah banget. Udah berjuta kali gue mengalami momen-momen yang susah banget dijelasin.

Kalo kata Mrs. Young di kelas American Literature gue, itu namanya beyond telling. A story so great that you even don't know how the heck to explain it. Beyond telling.

...dan selama momen-momen itu, gue sadar gue harus nulis tentang itu di blog. Gue gak tau gimana caranya, yang penting tulis aja.

But you know, the thing is, it's just so hard about dealing with yourself and your own ego.

But well, intinya, I'm back.

Semoga gue bisa bikin post-post seterusnya; kalaupun itu bakal cuma jadi post super singkat.

Semoga gue bisa menemukan cinta lama gue dengan buku harian gue ini.

Terima kasih.

xoxo from Oak Park,

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